I suppose we all go through stages in life that we are searching for “something”. I am the first to admit that there are times in my own life when I am struggling with a situation and turn to Him for guidance. I know, know, know that this is the wrong way to approach life. I should ALWAYS have complete and udder faith in all situations in my life. I know that God is in charge of EVERY situation and that I cannot change. God has moved in my life more times than I can even count, I am surrounded by blessings every single moment. There are times that I have heard people say to me, “you really have your hands full” and I simply laugh a little as I think in response to that ridiculous comment, “I would much rather have my hands full than empty”. Am I tired at times? Certainly I am! Do I long for a quiet evening with absolutely nothing to do some days? Of course I do! But would I ever change this crazy little thing called life that we have created? Absolutely not! Sadly, my oldest step-daughter has chosen not to be a part of our lives as far as this family unit is concerned, I pray about that often. The rest of the family is thriving as we grow not only in numbers but in our ability to view one another as a real family unit even though we are a jumble of a combination of his, hers, and ours… It seems that many times we get past one challenge only to open the door to the next one.
Last night, Steven and I were outside attempting to start a fire in our fire pit (without avail I might add). It was late, already dark out and as we were walking back in something “flopped” to the ground and made a small squeak sound. Initially I thought it was a frog that had either jumped or fallen from the tree above us. As I neared the “frog”, I realized it was a baby bird. There is a nest up high in that tree that we were talking about just the day before and wondering if there were birds or at least eggs in it. It was obvious upon examining the creature that it had met its final day. I ran in and got a flash light and looking up above we could actually see the hole in the nest that the bird had fallen from as well as one of its siblings lurking closely to that hole as well. I went to bed pretty upset about witnessing that and even said, “that mommy bird did not make a very good nest for her babies”. As I woke up this morning the bird was still on my mind. I wonder if that mommy is grieving the loss of her child or if she is even aware that it is gone from the nest. I reflected on my thoughts of her poor nest building skills and realized that in the whole grand scheme of things, a tree is a pretty awesome habitat for a baby bird. You see they can soar high in the air and a tree is just out of reach of danger but close enough to the ground so that the momma can easily search for food to feed her little ones. After more consideration, I realize that a baby bird falling from the tree is the likes of a baby human rolling off of a bed. If we leave them unattended, even for a moment, there is a chance that they will find their independence and roll a little too close to the edge. The old adage of, “whatever will be, will be” is ringing in my ears. God’s Will is going to come to pass. We do not know when but it will happen!
Today comes the day that I must go and protect one of my baby birds from a situation that I have successfully sheltered her from for almost 13 years. We have an unspoken need concerning this situation going on in our lives at the present and I am pleading for prayers of those that are taking the time to read this. I know that there is power in prayer and power in numbers… You put the two together in the combination of MANY people praying, and that is when God starts moving. I am oddly calm considering what the day could potentially have in store and I know that is my God! I do not pray like I should nor do I pretend to and there are times that I doubt things that I know I should not doubt. Ultimately, I know that there are times that I doubt my own faith and that is wrong. That is something that I need to work on personally as I make way through life. I realize how it is designed to be. “And if you believe you will receive whatever you ask for in prayer. Matthew 21:22. And while I pull this tiny piece of scripture into this writing today I realize how very powerful it is. I am putting my trust in my God that what is right is what will happen today. I trust in Him for the outcome.
Also, please say a prayer for a dear friend of mine that has been diagnosed with a very serious form of leukemia. She is a woman of God, a wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend to so many. She is fighting for her life at the moment and I know in my heart of hearts that just as I observed earlier, ‘whatever will be, will be” but she and this family need her here on Earth longer than her short 36 years.